The city of bridges.

Has i have had time to look back on my trip with my father to his home land.  I am amazed at how much i am like my father and very proud to be like him.  But also how different we are at the same time.  I learned so much about my past and where i came from.  Seeing where my family was formed and hearing the good and bad stories about them was one of the best things to happen to me when you look at your roots some things become clear about what you think and feel.  Some of these things we must over come some we must hone and make them better.  I love seeing my family and am so glad we got to connect.  the series of events that happened while we were up there still amaze me.  The way everything fell into place and the way that we received peace was amazing and i am so blessed by God.  I will tell all of you if there is something pulling at your heart do it you have no idea why but it may set someone free.

My aunt dolly passed away and a blog about the past of my family without saying something about her would be incomplete.  She was an amazing woman.  I was not close to her and didn't see her much in my life but every time I did see her she opened her heart and her arms in love.  She had a heart of love and energy like no other.  No matter what happened to her in her life she always acted in love.  When she stepped into a room that room lite up with her energy.  I Loved her Pittsburgh accent and listening to her talk is something i will miss.  I know that your passing is a blessing and that you are now is peace aunt Dolly.  I am so happy for you that you got to transition to that next realm of life.  I know you have enjoyed seeing your mother again and all your family that has gone before you.  I thank God that i had you in my life and i will take that energy you taught me throughout my life.


Has we drove though and around the city i had some things hit my heart and hit my mind.  It is amazing what people working together can do.  The city of Pittsburgh was devastated by the unions and the closing of the steel mills.  But the city worked hard to clean up and change the image of the city and they built the city back to a great city that it is.

It was so good to see and be in the city.  But it did make me love my home more then ever.  i will have to say i love Knoxville very much and am so proud to be from here.  We live in a beautiful city.

Thanks for reading again.  I know i don't post much bu i hope you like what you read.  Please comment If you can.  

The tunnels

The trip to Pittsburgh

 

As I drove though the tunnels of my second city

I found a connection that had never been there before. 

I found myself transforming the way I look at things and the past. 

The tunnels seemed to have an effect on me. 

As I saw where my family was born and where they came from

I found myself Loving the past more and more. 

As I Broke bread with family I haven’t seen in a decade

I found myself lost in the moment and proud of myself and my family

As I Found out that a family member passed.

I found peace and to know that all things come to an end. 

As I saw my father in his natural habitat

I found that we are an amazing Family

Love doesn’t describe how I feel about this situation. 

I am in amazement of this entire experience. 

So much love was shown to me that I am amazed.  

Girlfriend

The past few weeks have been very interesting to me.  i have grown so much and learned so much about myself and who i am.  This is awesome to live this life.  i have learned my addiction to worrying and that worrying about not having money is actually what has kept me broke.  But what this blog is about it quite simple I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND.  WOW and actually girlfriend.  lol I say that because it has been over 2 years since i had a woman in my life that wasn't just a friend or something.  I mean i have dated people and that has been great but to actually have a girlfriend is quite different.  Someone that isn't stuck on themselves and is willing to understand we all have faults.  It is nice to have someone in my life that wants to grow with me.  Anyways this relationship is just in the infant stage and i don't know where it is going but i am enjoying it for now and loving every minute of it.  I am so blessed in my life.  This gratitude thing can change your life folks.  Write down 3 things a day that went well 3 things that you are thankful for each day and your life will change.  Have a great night all thank you again for taking time to read my writings.  i wish i could post more but no internet.  thank you again i love you for reading this.  

The Princess of my World.

Yesterday was the Birthday of the princess of my world. 

4 Years ago she came into this world in such a different situation then her big brother. It was a different set of parents this time.  They were not in love as before they were just making it by.  Both had changed in life and changed in the reception of this life. As she came into this world the emotions were so different.  Not better not worse but different.  She came in like a force and changed my life forever.  Not in a immediate way like her brother but in a different softer way much like a true woman changes the life of any man.  She knew she was my princess from her first breath and has acted like it every day.  She knows exactly who she is and she is not ashamed of it or what she wants in life.  She Is the most detrimined and focused person i have ever met.  when she wants something she is going to get it come hell or high water.  I love this about her.  I pray every day that she never ever losses that drive and ambition.  My princess is going to do amazing things in the world i see it in her eyes.  We celebrated her birthday by going on a daddy/daughter Date.  This was an amazing night.  I truly enjoyed being with just my princess.  Just to see her open up to me like she never has.  I love my princess and i know that just like when she came into this world that love with grow and grow. 

Thank you for taking time to read again. 

The day I became a father

Part of this writing will be just a blog and part a poem.  For the last 6 years i have been a father.  This is something that has both scared me and brought me great joy.  The tears of joy that have came on and off over the past few years have been both cleansing and amazing.  Each day i am amazed by the level of love that this boy has brought into my life.  Tristan Michael Weathers Changed my life when he took his first breath. I can remember and still see the first time our eyes first met.   I can remember when i was a work and go that call from Jennifer she was in labor.  nothing could stop me from getting to that hospital.  Then we had that long wait of 12 hours then he made his appearance and mine and jennifer's life was changed forever.  Me and Jennifer didn't last but that never changed how I looked at my boy.  He has grown into to such a smart and amazing child.  He has become such an inspiration to me.  I am so thankful to have him as my son.  I can not describe the connection i have with him.  He is my best friend and i can not wait to see how he grows up.  I wish i could take him though life without any hurt but i know he will hurt and he will experiance pain.  I just hope that he learns how awesome he is and doesn't suffer from the things I did.  HE is the light of my life and from his first breath he changed my world.  I know that i am a great father to him and he is an amazing son to me.  It seems like there was not life before him and i couldn't image it with out him.  The one thing i am most proud of is my kids.  And my boy is someone i am very proud of.  I know that he is going to change the world.

When you took your first breath

You took mine away

When you took your first steps

You made me stumble

When you called me dad

You left me speechless

When you show me love

you teach me what love is

When you learn new things

you teach me how to live

When came into this world

You destroyed everything i had known

Thank you son for being you. 

Why don't we get along

First off it has been forever since i have had the ablity to blog.  With no internet at home it gets difficult to post writings.  I have been writing some but not as much as i would like.  But I am enjoying this life more and more each day.  It is amazing to look back and see where you came from.  How much you have changed in the year but still stayed the same at your core.  Learning to become your true self.  Learning to live the life that you were meant too.  When you do this there is a biproduct.  It is that people just don't get along and don't mesh. 

I have found the more i become myself and the less i actually judge the less people in my life are turned away and this is a good thing.  When you are living as your true self and not living your life based on what others think about you or feel about you this drives some people away becase they can not change you.  This is not a selfish thing it is actually very selfless because you are not seeking anything from anyone.  You are just being yourself and giving of yourself.  When you are like this some people are truly drawn to your energy and sprit.  It is an amazing thing to feel that draw.  But some people that you just don't click with are drawn away and that is not a bad thing because you are not based in what others think of you.  It is amazing once you start to become your self. 

The scruffy little city.

I wanted to write today about my city.  My home town the scruffy little city in the valley.  The city i have spent most my life in.  The city my kids were born in and the city they are raised in and around.  I am very proud to be from knoxville.  It is a great city for the most part. 

This is a city that is just big enough to have great things happening in it and around it.  We are so close to the beautiful mountains and so many things to do and see.   I have the chance to live in a history making area.  we lead the way in a lot of country changing movements in this area.  WE are a strong people that believe in this country and what it is.  I am so very proud to be from this area.  I grew up most my life here and while i love to travel and see other places coming home to this area makes me truly happy. 

I love the downtown area cause it si not to big to not be able to handle it.  i love market square it is an amazing place for this city to come together.  I love west knoxville where you can buy anything and get stuck on kingston pike for hours.  i love west towne mall where you can see ever teenager in knoxville walk around and make horrible fashion choices. 

We may not be the most progressive city and be the leader on most things but we are a great city and i am proud to be from here the scruffy little city in the valley.