The day I became a father

Part of this writing will be just a blog and part a poem.  For the last 6 years i have been a father.  This is something that has both scared me and brought me great joy.  The tears of joy that have came on and off over the past few years have been both cleansing and amazing.  Each day i am amazed by the level of love that this boy has brought into my life.  Tristan Michael Weathers Changed my life when he took his first breath. I can remember and still see the first time our eyes first met.   I can remember when i was a work and go that call from Jennifer she was in labor.  nothing could stop me from getting to that hospital.  Then we had that long wait of 12 hours then he made his appearance and mine and jennifer's life was changed forever.  Me and Jennifer didn't last but that never changed how I looked at my boy.  He has grown into to such a smart and amazing child.  He has become such an inspiration to me.  I am so thankful to have him as my son.  I can not describe the connection i have with him.  He is my best friend and i can not wait to see how he grows up.  I wish i could take him though life without any hurt but i know he will hurt and he will experiance pain.  I just hope that he learns how awesome he is and doesn't suffer from the things I did.  HE is the light of my life and from his first breath he changed my world.  I know that i am a great father to him and he is an amazing son to me.  It seems like there was not life before him and i couldn't image it with out him.  The one thing i am most proud of is my kids.  And my boy is someone i am very proud of.  I know that he is going to change the world.

When you took your first breath

You took mine away

When you took your first steps

You made me stumble

When you called me dad

You left me speechless

When you show me love

you teach me what love is

When you learn new things

you teach me how to live

When came into this world

You destroyed everything i had known

Thank you son for being you. 

Why don't we get along

First off it has been forever since i have had the ablity to blog.  With no internet at home it gets difficult to post writings.  I have been writing some but not as much as i would like.  But I am enjoying this life more and more each day.  It is amazing to look back and see where you came from.  How much you have changed in the year but still stayed the same at your core.  Learning to become your true self.  Learning to live the life that you were meant too.  When you do this there is a biproduct.  It is that people just don't get along and don't mesh. 

I have found the more i become myself and the less i actually judge the less people in my life are turned away and this is a good thing.  When you are living as your true self and not living your life based on what others think about you or feel about you this drives some people away becase they can not change you.  This is not a selfish thing it is actually very selfless because you are not seeking anything from anyone.  You are just being yourself and giving of yourself.  When you are like this some people are truly drawn to your energy and sprit.  It is an amazing thing to feel that draw.  But some people that you just don't click with are drawn away and that is not a bad thing because you are not based in what others think of you.  It is amazing once you start to become your self. 

The scruffy little city.

I wanted to write today about my city.  My home town the scruffy little city in the valley.  The city i have spent most my life in.  The city my kids were born in and the city they are raised in and around.  I am very proud to be from knoxville.  It is a great city for the most part. 

This is a city that is just big enough to have great things happening in it and around it.  We are so close to the beautiful mountains and so many things to do and see.   I have the chance to live in a history making area.  we lead the way in a lot of country changing movements in this area.  WE are a strong people that believe in this country and what it is.  I am so very proud to be from this area.  I grew up most my life here and while i love to travel and see other places coming home to this area makes me truly happy. 

I love the downtown area cause it si not to big to not be able to handle it.  i love market square it is an amazing place for this city to come together.  I love west knoxville where you can buy anything and get stuck on kingston pike for hours.  i love west towne mall where you can see ever teenager in knoxville walk around and make horrible fashion choices. 

We may not be the most progressive city and be the leader on most things but we are a great city and i am proud to be from here the scruffy little city in the valley.