The Princess of my World.

Yesterday was the Birthday of the princess of my world. 

4 Years ago she came into this world in such a different situation then her big brother. It was a different set of parents this time.  They were not in love as before they were just making it by.  Both had changed in life and changed in the reception of this life. As she came into this world the emotions were so different.  Not better not worse but different.  She came in like a force and changed my life forever.  Not in a immediate way like her brother but in a different softer way much like a true woman changes the life of any man.  She knew she was my princess from her first breath and has acted like it every day.  She knows exactly who she is and she is not ashamed of it or what she wants in life.  She Is the most detrimined and focused person i have ever met.  when she wants something she is going to get it come hell or high water.  I love this about her.  I pray every day that she never ever losses that drive and ambition.  My princess is going to do amazing things in the world i see it in her eyes.  We celebrated her birthday by going on a daddy/daughter Date.  This was an amazing night.  I truly enjoyed being with just my princess.  Just to see her open up to me like she never has.  I love my princess and i know that just like when she came into this world that love with grow and grow. 

Thank you for taking time to read again. 

The day I became a father

Part of this writing will be just a blog and part a poem.  For the last 6 years i have been a father.  This is something that has both scared me and brought me great joy.  The tears of joy that have came on and off over the past few years have been both cleansing and amazing.  Each day i am amazed by the level of love that this boy has brought into my life.  Tristan Michael Weathers Changed my life when he took his first breath. I can remember and still see the first time our eyes first met.   I can remember when i was a work and go that call from Jennifer she was in labor.  nothing could stop me from getting to that hospital.  Then we had that long wait of 12 hours then he made his appearance and mine and jennifer's life was changed forever.  Me and Jennifer didn't last but that never changed how I looked at my boy.  He has grown into to such a smart and amazing child.  He has become such an inspiration to me.  I am so thankful to have him as my son.  I can not describe the connection i have with him.  He is my best friend and i can not wait to see how he grows up.  I wish i could take him though life without any hurt but i know he will hurt and he will experiance pain.  I just hope that he learns how awesome he is and doesn't suffer from the things I did.  HE is the light of my life and from his first breath he changed my world.  I know that i am a great father to him and he is an amazing son to me.  It seems like there was not life before him and i couldn't image it with out him.  The one thing i am most proud of is my kids.  And my boy is someone i am very proud of.  I know that he is going to change the world.

When you took your first breath

You took mine away

When you took your first steps

You made me stumble

When you called me dad

You left me speechless

When you show me love

you teach me what love is

When you learn new things

you teach me how to live

When came into this world

You destroyed everything i had known

Thank you son for being you. 

Why don't we get along

First off it has been forever since i have had the ablity to blog.  With no internet at home it gets difficult to post writings.  I have been writing some but not as much as i would like.  But I am enjoying this life more and more each day.  It is amazing to look back and see where you came from.  How much you have changed in the year but still stayed the same at your core.  Learning to become your true self.  Learning to live the life that you were meant too.  When you do this there is a biproduct.  It is that people just don't get along and don't mesh. 

I have found the more i become myself and the less i actually judge the less people in my life are turned away and this is a good thing.  When you are living as your true self and not living your life based on what others think about you or feel about you this drives some people away becase they can not change you.  This is not a selfish thing it is actually very selfless because you are not seeking anything from anyone.  You are just being yourself and giving of yourself.  When you are like this some people are truly drawn to your energy and sprit.  It is an amazing thing to feel that draw.  But some people that you just don't click with are drawn away and that is not a bad thing because you are not based in what others think of you.  It is amazing once you start to become your self. 

The scruffy little city.

I wanted to write today about my city.  My home town the scruffy little city in the valley.  The city i have spent most my life in.  The city my kids were born in and the city they are raised in and around.  I am very proud to be from knoxville.  It is a great city for the most part. 

This is a city that is just big enough to have great things happening in it and around it.  We are so close to the beautiful mountains and so many things to do and see.   I have the chance to live in a history making area.  we lead the way in a lot of country changing movements in this area.  WE are a strong people that believe in this country and what it is.  I am so very proud to be from this area.  I grew up most my life here and while i love to travel and see other places coming home to this area makes me truly happy. 

I love the downtown area cause it si not to big to not be able to handle it.  i love market square it is an amazing place for this city to come together.  I love west knoxville where you can buy anything and get stuck on kingston pike for hours.  i love west towne mall where you can see ever teenager in knoxville walk around and make horrible fashion choices. 

We may not be the most progressive city and be the leader on most things but we are a great city and i am proud to be from here the scruffy little city in the valley. 

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So Many things to write about and not enough space or time.  I do wish i could write in this blog more but internet is not an expense i can afford at this point.  

The events of the last few days have changed my life.  I am so blessed to have the people in my life that i do. i know what i mean to the people that are truly close to me and leaving a job or other changes in my life hasn't changed any of that.  I am so thankful for these people because they give me hope.  There is one lady in my life that has shown me hope of a marriage not by liking me or even at that level.  But she has taught me by having a marriage that has lasted though thick and thin by relying on the promises God told her.  Because of her example i know that there is a woman out there for me that i will not have to compromise for and i will love with my heart because God will bring her to me when it is time for me to know her.  I know that there is true commitment in people and someone that will stick it out when times get tough and when they are great.  

I also want to say that i have learned a lot about judging.  Not judging people but situations and times that i am in.  If we come into a situation and have an open heart and are truly open for what comes our way then every interaction can change your life.  If you look at your life a little bigger then you normally give it credit for and see that you make and impact either positive or negative on everyone you come in contact with then you will truly see what life is about.  

I hope these words find you awesome.  

Peace.  

Chapters in life

Chapters in your life.  

As I have been in the past few months been making a lot of changes in my outlooks and in my attitudes in life. and now that i am making a huge change in my career.  These actions make me think about chapters in this story of my life i am writing everyday.  It has made me think ab out my time with people and the connections i have made.  We are the author of our days.  we choose what we will think of and what we will do with our lives.  I do believe it is so important to remember this.  I have heard a a lot of people in my life talk about the next chapter in there life.  i find this funny.  like each chapter of your life has nothing to do with the past one or the future ones.  Go pick up a book and read a chapter in the middle of a book or the last chapter you will not have the full effect of that book or even truly know what is happening.  If we live our life from chapter to chapter then we will never truly have the full effect of our life.  I don't care who you are you change the world in your everyday life.  whether for the good or the bad you change peopls days and their lives. Never ever forget that it is such an amazing ability.  Author your story each and every day.  Paint the painting of your life.  remember when wee breath our last breath not many people remember what they have bought in their lives they remember the experiences and the people that touched there lives.   I have so much i could say about this I could tyupe for days about this subject.  Painting the painting of your life how you want it to be.  you control the brush not anyone else. If we will start to get that in our heads more often that you will understand that where you are in your life is right where you are supposed to be because it is what you have chosen for ourselves by our thoughts and actions.  This is a truth of the universe i know it may be hard to hear but it is the truth.  once you start to take the responsibly then you will start to change your situation. It wont happen over night but you control.  A great quote it you either have results or excuses you choose.  

Thanks for reading i wish i could write you more but i don't have internet any more.  Thank you again.  

Dating and the crazy world we live in

It has been forever since i had the chance to blog.  I have been writing some but not able to post since i don't have internet.  any ways enough about that back to the subject at hand.   My life has gone though so many changes.  My mind set has changed and my world view.  i am so blessed and if you are reading this you are blessing my life..

So the subject that i wanted to talk about is dating.  Most of my friends that would read this don't have to deal with dating but i do.  I have learned some lessons about dealing with other people though dating that are priceless.

I have learned that when dealing with others they have their own issues and agendas.  They have their own issues and hang ups.  dealing with a free dating site brings up its own problems.  Some people are ready for that relationship and some are truly not but they are trying things out and putting you at risk to do this.  As someone who feels the moment and lives with an open heart you have to learn that people will hurt you because they don't know how else to act.  You have to put yourself out there to get something back.  unless you give of yourself you will never and i mean never have something great.  I have found that since my intentions are so different then most men that i am looked at as a liar and someone that is just trying to get in someones pants.  I think this is funny.  My intentions for dating are for something amazing and life changing.  It is funny for me to date at this point i have been mostly single for 2 years now.  I have had some relationships but most have not worked out for one reason or another.  I have learned so much about myself and how i interact with people.  I have so very blessed.  I have met some great people whether they are still in my life or not i have met some great ones.  Most people that you meet are only in your life for a few days to weeks because they are after one thing and one thing only.  but i truly enjoy making a connection with people and sharing some of myself with them.  There are times that you get down and get rejection after rejection which in the 2 years is all i have had since i am still single.  Some of the rejection has come from me some from the women.  but that rejection is such a blessing it has taught me so much.  My friends have been there to build me back up and help me though the bad times.  I thank every friend that i have for everything they have done for me.

So i guess the point of this ramble is that even though rejection and strife you are given gifts.  When you start to see these gifts the strife and rejections stop happening because you see the value in everything.

Thank you for reading.