The Exs Club

Last night i was looking though some very old pictures of mine and I found myself down memory lane.  Thinking of all the good things that me and my ex's had done and all the good times we had.  It is so very interesting how i am able to go back and almost feel the same feelings that i felt back then.  It seems to be living in a dream world but i can still Feel and sense just as i did.  As I thought about these good times that i have had with the people that have been in my life.  A lot of those people are no longer in my life or are just in my life in passing.  Someone i see on Facebook or just in passing in life.  I started to think about how i think about them and how we look at ex's.  I don't just mean ex girlfriends or boyfriends i also mean ex friends and family members we no longer talk too.
It is amazing how quickly we vilify the ex's in our lives.  We are so quick to forget the good times that we had with that person.   In fact if we go back and look at what made us love that person to begin with they probably wont become the ex but that is for another time.  If you were to look at our ex's for the reasons that we like or loved them for I don't think we would be so quick to vilify them.  I think that when we break up with someone or cut someone out of our life there is a reason and i am not saying that we should keep people in our life that have no place any more or someone that brings you down.  But I am saying that instead of hating the time we had with that person we should look at it for what it is.  Look at our time with them in the good light that is was.  Every relationship that we have on this earth is sent here to teach us something.  They may not last our whole life but it will teach us the lesson it is here to teach us.  If we do not learn our lesson we will continue to have the same type of relationships over and over.  Let me make myself an example to this fact.  Since i became a divorced person in 2010 i have a lot of the same relationships with different people.  Most my dating interactions have either moved extremely fast and commitment has come very early then fizzed out fairly quickly once we got to know the true person or i have been stood up or not talked to after 1 date.  Heck i had someone move in my home 2 months knowing them.  So i had to learn my lesson and know what causes this and learn from those relationships.  I look at each interaction with these women as a lesson.  I have now become a lot more authentic then i ever was.  And when you are your true self then not ever person will like you it is proven.  So we must learn from each relationship ever one of my exs came into my life to teach me a lesson and brought a lot of great things into my life.  I truely believe we should look at the exs in our lives for the great time and the lessons they have taught us.  It truly sucks when the person you want no longer wants us.  Trust me i know that hurt i have been rejected a lot in my life.  But that doesn't erase what that person meant to us in the past.  This was on my heart to write and I know that i have jumped around but i had to share.  Bless you.

Why should i give you my time. "friend"

First off i will still be using this blog for more of a journal when i want people to read whats going on in my life.   EDDAVATE will be for my motivational stuff.

What has been on my mind the past few days is why in the hell would i give someone my time when they only come around when they need a pick me up or when it is convenient to them.  In my dating life since being divorced i have been treated so horrible and put on the back burner so much.  I have friends that only wanna come around when they don't have a bf or gf..  Then i am their best friend until the next.  A lot of guys talk about the friend zone in life and i am ok with the friends zone if it is a true friendship.  But to be honest most are not.  They want you around to give them attention and when you are not needed you are trashed.  it i sad because life could be so much better with good friendships.  When it comes to dating my dating life has been a joke.  i know i am not the best looking guy in this world but i am one hell of a guy.  i know i have a broken front tooth but i am still a catch.  When that right one finds that out and opens up to me they will find something amazing.  But to be ignored talked to like a dog and treated the way i have been it uncalled for.  On every dating profile i read i want an honest man.  That won;t treat me bad.  how do you ever think you will get that if you still date the same douche bag looking trash that you always have.  And when you get a guy that does pay his bills supports his children and works 2 jobs you ignore him and what he is.  I am better then that will ever be.  I love how women will just talk to you when they want sokmething.  But hey i am just venting at this point.  I am blessed beyond belief and on the road to my full potential.  So when they look back and see me on TV.  they can tell their family that is the guy i stood up.  Have fun

Thanks again for reading.

The Phoenix

Though burning and ash

Though scorch and pain

Though the agony of hell

And the burning of every cell

A new being is born

A Stronger, more determined

More beautiful and true being

A being that learned though the pain

Is born strength and beauty

He is ready to fly again

He is ready to be what he was meant to be

The Phoenix



The pain of love

Love is a word that is given and taken away so much in the world today.  I truly believe love can heal all wounds and love can make a way though anything in life.  Love is the language of the universe.  When we act in love we are letting the universe that God himself created flow though us. 

     As i have said before since we are made from the divine we ourselves are divine.  God has allowed us to be like him with our own free will to do what we want too.  But he also gave us the responsibility of our decisions.  He allows us to make what ever decision we want but we must live with those consequences.  I truly believe this is the ultimate love to allow someone you love so much to make up their own mind about things.  But to know that those decisions have consequences is even greater.  to know that we can prosper from our decisions to know that we alone control our fate on this earth is an amazing thing.  I am so thankful for this ability.  No one controls us.  We make our own decisions in this life and where ever we are in life is because we choose to be there.  This is such a powerful statement.  That the universe that flows though us puts us in situations based about who we are and what our energy is.  I am so thankful today for this ability.  

so you think you know me

So you think you know me.  

You think you know my thoughts

You think you know my reasons

Your decisions are based off the past

they are based off of others. 

Your eyes are tinted with the past

and the actions of others

You think you can predict what i will do

Because of what others have done. 

You have taken no time to know my intent

or to learn who i am

you base your decisions off others

because of this you lose this moment

and this awesome person that stands in front of you. 

Your inner voice

Thank you once again for taking the time to click that link and read what I write.  

So much of life is what the inner voice tells us.  We can be totally disabled by what our inner voice tells us.  We can treat others like total shit because we perceive what they say as lesser.  It all goes back to the inner voice. Lets make an example of this.  Take a death in the family which is one of the worst things anyone has to go though to lose a loved one is very hard.  We can look it as losing someone and they are gone forever.  Or we can say it was their time to take the journey we all will take and they are at peace now.  Because the truth is we all die.  The second look doesn't mean that you will nto hurt from the lose and that is normal and you need that time but when our inner voice speaks we must watch what it is saying and make sure it is lined up with where we want to be in life.  If we can teach this voice to look for what we have and not what we do not then you will live a live of gratitude and that is a life that is kick ass.  

 All religions talk about this voice. Some say that it will automatically change and some religions talk about how to change this voice to line up with what you truly want. This is where the changes in life must be made before any success can be made.  Cause if you always see life as the negative you will never have to confidence to get out there and live your dreams.  Over the past few days my voice has been very negative.  Finding the things wrong in my life and not seeing all the things that are awesome.

Luckily i have caught this and can work on this though meditation.  I wanted to share this with everyone because i believe me being open may help you with what you are going though.  

This writing is a short one i just wanted to share.  Thank you again for reading.   

WHO AM I>

This Blog is a writing that i am truly writing for me.  I am sharing so that some may get inspiration from it.  I hope that you enjoy my writing and i hope that you share them with others.  I would love to get my writings out there so please share on your facebook or twitter.  Thank you again for your time.

In my reading and meditations with deepak chopra he teaches there is 3 soul questions we should ask ourselves though out the day at important times.  They are who am i, What do i want, and what is my purpose/karma.  I wanted to write about the first one while i was working at target tonight i found myself mediatating on this question.  Asking myself this over and over again.  Who am i.  Who am i.  this si such a powerful questions because the answer can change every single time you ask it.  We are multi dimensional being on this earth.  When i ask myself this question i get answers like Father, lover, steelers fan, peaceful, Meditator, and so many more.  I am so many things.  This is such an interesting concept to be some many different things but yet one person.  I truly believe this is a gift given to us by God.  We are created in his image therefore just as he is multi dimensional so can we be.  We all have divine power in us.  he has given us the power to change ourselves into what we want and need to be in this life.  There are so many stories of people changing themselves and there situations to become stronger and better in this life.  i truly believe this is God in us and this is the abilities he gave us.  So many times we look to the sky to change our situations but if we will jsut be honest and authentic with ourselves then we can change our situations in time.  It may not happen over night but true change i don't believe does.  I am so thankful God made me who i am and made me with the ability with Hard work and bring honest with myself i can change any situation.  I think one of the biggest sins is not being honest with yourself and the desires and abilities God placed in you.  I think it is a smack in Gods face.  I have been on a long road of honesty.  More then likely i have lied to you if you are reading this because i am a recovering pathological liar.  I had to make stories to make my life better because i didn't think i was good enough.  but has i have learned in the past for months and weeks i am AWESOME.  I believe once we get how awesome we really are and live that authentic life then we unlock so much power to live the true life we are meant to live.

 Thank you again for reading.  Please share with your friends and family.