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In my reading and meditations with deepak chopra he teaches there is 3 soul questions we should ask ourselves though out the day at important times.  They are who am i, What do i want, and what is my purpose/karma.  I wanted to write about the first one while i was working at target tonight i found myself mediatating on this question.  Asking myself this over and over again.  Who am i.  Who am i.  this si such a powerful questions because the answer can change every single time you ask it.  We are multi dimensional being on this earth.  When i ask myself this question i get answers like Father, lover, steelers fan, peaceful, Meditator, and so many more.  I am so many things.  This is such an interesting concept to be some many different things but yet one person.  I truly believe this is a gift given to us by God.  We are created in his image therefore just as he is multi dimensional so can we be.  We all have divine power in us.  he has given us the power to change ourselves into what we want and need to be in this life.  There are so many stories of people changing themselves and there situations to become stronger and better in this life.  i truly believe this is God in us and this is the abilities he gave us.  So many times we look to the sky to change our situations but if we will jsut be honest and authentic with ourselves then we can change our situations in time.  It may not happen over night but true change i don't believe does.  I am so thankful God made me who i am and made me with the ability with Hard work and bring honest with myself i can change any situation.  I think one of the biggest sins is not being honest with yourself and the desires and abilities God placed in you.  I think it is a smack in Gods face.  I have been on a long road of honesty.  More then likely i have lied to you if you are reading this because i am a recovering pathological liar.  I had to make stories to make my life better because i didn't think i was good enough.  but has i have learned in the past for months and weeks i am AWESOME.  I believe once we get how awesome we really are and live that authentic life then we unlock so much power to live the true life we are meant to live.

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Random thoughts and writings: Your lens

Random thoughts and writings: Your lens: In the past few weeks i have started to see something about life that is true for everyone.  I have come to learn that life is not ...

Your lens

In the past few weeks i have started to see something about life that is true for everyone.  I have come to learn that life is not always as it seems.  This life is truly about what lens you look though.  God gave us an amazing mind and an amazing brain.  we have a system in our brain called the reticulating access system or as david wood calls it the ras.  This ras pulls the things out of unconscious thought to conscious thought.  david did a great job in describing it as our secret service.  The secret service doesn't look for people cheering for the president they look for people that may harm him.  That is because they are trained that way.  So it is with our ras system if we train it to see the bad in the world it will but if we train it to see the positive in the situation it will bring that to conscious thought.  This system has a lot to do with our happiness in any situation.  I am so programmed to look at the negative that almost every situation i find the negative.  There was a point in my life that almost every day i would have a mental breakdown about some situation anything that was change would freak me out.  With the knowledge about the ras system i have learned to take chances.  Some of them are awesome and i am so glad that i have made them.  Some i am glad i did them but my are they a learning experience.  in everything in life there is a lesson and as i have said in the past learn your lesson and you will get your blessing.  This ras system is so important to your success and your happiness.  

Take for example myself.  I am truly an entrepreneur in my spirit i crave to have freedom in my life and want the ability to be with my kids whenever i can and to work hard when i am not with them.  That being said in the past few months i have had a few opportunities to start a small business come my way from a lot of people.   But since my ras is set up to see the way it will fail i have let those things go.  i am changing my ras which is a slow process thanks to some of the behaviors i have learned it is changing in a lot of ways.  but that ras has kept me safe which is its job but the juicy part of life is not lived in the safe it is lived in the unknown out of the comfort zone.  

i am so thankful for the lessons i have learned in that past few months and thankful for the people in my life and the ones leaving and coming.  each person has taught me lessons.  I am not perfect i have my bad days but like david says why does it have to be a bad day how about just a bad few minutes.  

My next project is to work on my sacrificing for others before myself and make myself number one in life.  cause when you love yourself to put yourself first you will love others more deeply and be more authentic which creates deeper relationships which creates a KICK ASS LIFE

I truly hope this writing finds you Awesome.  Contact me on facebook.  Lets talk.  

My finding on success.

The past few months. 

Over the past few months I have been doing a lot of studying on success and the people the world defines as successful.  I have not done as extensive training as a lot of people have but I have found three traits that run though most of them.  I am going to be adopting these three into my life over time. 

The first is the ability to move on very quickly when things go bad or issues are created.  To move on and find a solution.  This ability is about not wasting energy on the bad thing that happened but to put that energy toward the solution.  This ability with relationships with people is immediate forgiveness.  To move on from the emotion of the problem that happened between the two of them and to forgive.  In business and life the ability is about know that something bad happened experiencing it and moving to the solution as soon as possible.  I am finding more and more as I learn the habits of the successful that this is the only way to go toward your passion.  Which leads me to the next trait.                                 

Enthusiasm is the second trait.  Successful people in this world will not take on anything they cannot be passionate about.  This trait I believe is more important than the facts around the situation.  If you are enthusiastic about your life and positive about the outlook on whatever you are doing whether it be in work, family, or love life then this area of your life with grow and become successful.  And to truly be positive and enthusiastic about any situation you have to be honest. 

Honesty I believe is the key to it all.  I believe it is the key to the kick ass life.  If you are not honest with yourself and others I truly don’t believe you can be happy.  Because you will always have something to hide and something to be scared of.  Honesty is the key to it all.  Be honest with compassion all the time.  When I talk about this I hear you have to lie sometimes to protect people’s feelings.  I say no you don’t. I truly believe people want honesty in their lives.  If you tell the truth with compassion and learn the art of talking to people honesty will set you free. 

  

Thrist

On the days I feel thirst on the days I feel alone in this desert of life.  I feel like around the corner is someone to help when I round that corner there is no one there.  I feel alone and fear the worst I will thirst to death.  Then you God come in and quench the thirst that I feel.  I lay here alone until I reach out for you.  Even when I have turned my back on you the love that you have for me shines though.  I look at my life and I see how you are molding me everyday to be the person you have created me to be.  I see the talents you have given to me and I see the connection to others you have put in me.  I feel a connection to every living soul and the ones that have went before me.  When I quite this mind of the flesh I see into these connections.  I learn from the ones around me and the ones that have already moved on.  I see the peace that you lord bring to a heart like mine.  I feel that this peace comes from your love for me which is the greatest gift you have given me.  You have taught me to love everyone on this earth and to bless them not curse them.  The love that you have for me lord is beyond anything I can imagine or dream.  I thank you for the gifts you have given me and the desires in my heart you have given me.  I know that you can quench the thirst in my heart because you planted that thirst there so I would crave you and crave your sweet milk of the energy of spirit.  I know that some people look at you different then I do lord.  I know that you act in love and love me.  I accept that I will fall short of your glory and that you have sent an amazing sacrifice to me so that I can be worth to have my thirst quenched.  

The city of bridges.

Has i have had time to look back on my trip with my father to his home land.  I am amazed at how much i am like my father and very proud to be like him.  But also how different we are at the same time.  I learned so much about my past and where i came from.  Seeing where my family was formed and hearing the good and bad stories about them was one of the best things to happen to me when you look at your roots some things become clear about what you think and feel.  Some of these things we must over come some we must hone and make them better.  I love seeing my family and am so glad we got to connect.  the series of events that happened while we were up there still amaze me.  The way everything fell into place and the way that we received peace was amazing and i am so blessed by God.  I will tell all of you if there is something pulling at your heart do it you have no idea why but it may set someone free.

My aunt dolly passed away and a blog about the past of my family without saying something about her would be incomplete.  She was an amazing woman.  I was not close to her and didn't see her much in my life but every time I did see her she opened her heart and her arms in love.  She had a heart of love and energy like no other.  No matter what happened to her in her life she always acted in love.  When she stepped into a room that room lite up with her energy.  I Loved her Pittsburgh accent and listening to her talk is something i will miss.  I know that your passing is a blessing and that you are now is peace aunt Dolly.  I am so happy for you that you got to transition to that next realm of life.  I know you have enjoyed seeing your mother again and all your family that has gone before you.  I thank God that i had you in my life and i will take that energy you taught me throughout my life.


Has we drove though and around the city i had some things hit my heart and hit my mind.  It is amazing what people working together can do.  The city of Pittsburgh was devastated by the unions and the closing of the steel mills.  But the city worked hard to clean up and change the image of the city and they built the city back to a great city that it is.

It was so good to see and be in the city.  But it did make me love my home more then ever.  i will have to say i love Knoxville very much and am so proud to be from here.  We live in a beautiful city.

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The tunnels

The trip to Pittsburgh

 

As I drove though the tunnels of my second city

I found a connection that had never been there before. 

I found myself transforming the way I look at things and the past. 

The tunnels seemed to have an effect on me. 

As I saw where my family was born and where they came from

I found myself Loving the past more and more. 

As I Broke bread with family I haven’t seen in a decade

I found myself lost in the moment and proud of myself and my family

As I Found out that a family member passed.

I found peace and to know that all things come to an end. 

As I saw my father in his natural habitat

I found that we are an amazing Family

Love doesn’t describe how I feel about this situation. 

I am in amazement of this entire experience. 

So much love was shown to me that I am amazed.